With the pearl's light casting a spotlight around the rock field, the woman felt renewed vigor to once again resume her uncertain journey towards the mountain peak. The longing she held for familiar comforts faded as the fire of the pearl inspired her to go onward. She began to walk up the rocky slope and soon, the meadowed valley fell further below as she ascended into the forest of the mountain's belly.
Groves of evergreen trees clustered in herds like the towering skyscrapers of her childhood city. She breathed deep the mountain air. Vigorated, she began to sing. Alone she was in the empty wood, and yet alone she was not as she felt the Presence envelope her like a delicate mossy veil.
The woman had traveled far. All that she knew had been left behind. When her strand of wisdom pearls broke and fell, a part of her invisible self broke and fell as well. She no longer walked with the swagger of certainty. Humility found it's way to hidden caves of her inner world as she lapsed into a twilight of faith and hope.
But now, here on the mountain slope with a lone glowing pearl guiding her footsteps, the woman swelled with welcomed gratitude, welcomed like an old lost friend nearly forgotten. The pearls lost, yet one found, the most important one, which was now light to her in a wilderness of shadows. It seemed a miracle of sorts to her.
And thus, we end our tale of the woman and her pearl here. There is no ending to tell of, for she has yet to reach her destination. The mountain peak always remains before her, always ahead of her and never behind. She does not fret. She has learned to soak in the moment that is right before her.
The small pearl glows with steady light, assuring her of which steps to take. The long strand now long forgotten. She has found grace in the wilderness.


2 comments:
The story was poignant and beautiful, Pam. How you managed to shrink all of the experience into so few words is a true feat!
While I've already told you that your story, and your beautiful pearl necklace analogy, is also my story, it brings into question--is this a universal struggle? Does this just happen to women..."Christians"...bloggers ;)?
I can't help but want to know more! I wonder what it was that caused your strand to break because I'm sure it was different circumstances than mine, but somehow similarities exist.
I thought about your initial reaction to the pearls breaking and scattering. Mine was to get on my knees and scramble to collect them ALL as quickly as I could, and when I discovered I couldn't, I grew very angry at God and refused to get up off of my bloodied knees--it was easier to be angry.
And finally, I wonder if we will ever again string our pearls to wear, or if we will simply collect them, treasure them in our hands and hearts, and share them with others around us. Surely it will be different than before!
Thank you for an amazing story and for sharing it...I know that it has been a painful but promising journey.
thanks for your feedback kimberly. this was a new form of writing for me. i am really determined to take off the filters and be willing to write in new directions and in fresh styles. this was that kind of thing. i'm glad it spoke to you. resonance with readers is the best kind of response and i am grateful to you for allowing me to have your "ears" for a little while.
hope your new year is off to a good start!
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