Saturday, January 29, 2011

Alabama

Tomorrow morning when the sun is not yet seen my husband will drop my daughter and I off at Portland International airport.  By day's end, we ought to be in the southern region of the United States. Specifically, we ought to be walking the ground of Montgomery, Alabama.

My nearly 97-year old grandmother, affectionately known as Mimi, passed away a few days ago. My mother has told my sister and I that when this day would come that we must pack our bags and head south to hold her hand and help her bury her mother. My sister and I grew up in the west so we have only a handful of memories of our mother's mother. We've been to Alabama only a few times and have met on such occasions relatives and cousins from my mother's side of the family.

When the news came that Mimi had breathed her last, I asked my children if they wanted to go help pay their respect. My son, nearly 14, predictably said, "I'm sorry she's passed, but it's ok. I'd rather stay home." He hasn't a single memory to hang on to of her so I did not press it. Besides, the last thing I want is to be couped up in a hotel room with a scowling adolescent boy who just doesn't see the value in sitting around the kitchen table and swapping stories.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

A Strong Tree I Stand - a poem from my secret red book of poetry

This is a rare poem that I have written. I'm not much for poetry, but this is one that brewed in me for the longest time and then it was born. I've posted it on this blog before, and I've read it several times in public venues. It seems right to post it this month of January as we enter the new year during the drab, grey season of winter.

I hope you enjoy the imagery. It still speaks deeply to me every time I read it. 


                                                           
                                                      A Strong Tree

A strong tree I stood
Confident of my vigor and green
Clustered leaves covered proud limbs
My shade gave comfort to many souls
You should have seen me then

The beauty of the strength of my gifting
To birds of the air
And children who climbed
To lovers lost in gaze and poets who wept
Their tears inspired by my towering strength

A song I was
Each day I radiated life
I, the strong tree, mattered.

Then came the cold winter winds
Slowly my leaves fell from my limbs
Leaves of pride and dignity
My strength, identity
They fell

There I stood
Stripped
Naked
Vulnerable

In grief I looked at my beautiful leaves
Like fallen laundry on the earth below
I watched them turn to dust

No more poets cry beneath me
Where are the lovers who loved in my shadow?

Stripped of my strength, of my beautiful gifting

My limbs stand bare
No longer masked by pride
I am bare as hope

The winds blow some more
I feel them and shake
Trembling with fear as
I stand helpless under the sky
Of the Great Creator God

Why does he ravage me?


The lovers are gone
No poets sing my verse
Alone I have become with my dust

But I can smell the rains
I can see the sun far away
Her light breaking
Like the lovers I miss
The rain weeps as did the poets I have known

My bare limbs hunger for sun and soaking
By fire and rain

In nakedness I discover the beauty of humility and weakness.

A strong tree I stand

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

I Miss My Blog...

That's it. I simply miss the virtual camraderie of sitting around my blogpost like a campfire and passing around ideas and conversation with those who would stop by and sit a spell. I miss the backyard bonfires of blogging over the past five years.

Life dealt me some significant transitions that interrupted this blog's journey.  But now things have eased up. The proverbial dust of things settling down as my time commitments and daily schedule smoothes out means I ought to be able to once again resume inviting others to consider new and old ideas about faith and spirituality and whatever else wanders through the meadow of my imagination.

I miss blogging. I'm a verbal processor, meaning I need to talk and exchange ideas to figure out what I really think and believe. Blogging is the virtual equivalent of discourse, of bringing to the public square those things which interest me to talk about outloud.

Expect more from me. I am back to the blogosphere. I hope old friends and new will once again join me around the fire as we discover together and through one another what we need to hold on and what we need to let go of as God messes up not just mine, but other folks religion.